Tuesday, July 21, 2009

your life is an occasion. rise to it.

*Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium



So, she's gone.

My (okay, our...) beloved cat, Baby, is gone.

I miss her.

My heart hurts when I think about how I'll never see her again How I'll never see her truckin' along, wanting to be around people and being an attention-whore. How I'll never hear her insanely loud purr that never went away. How I'll never feel her lumpy fur in my fingers. How I'll never get to secretly snuggle with her when Tag's not paying attention. How I'll never get to feed her friskies again. How I'll never accidentally step on her because she somehow managed to always be right under my feet. How I'll never get to pretend to have conversations with her because that was our thing. How I'll never get bitten or meowed at because she's mad, or bored, or annoyed, or happy, or excited, or playful. She's gone, and that's the end.

Heartbroken.

Who knew?



I know she's a girl, but I really, really love this movie, and this quote seems to resonate with me so often.

I feel like there's just been so much loss this year. I really don't like it.


I'm just really, really sad. And sometimes when I think about it, I get upset because I'm so emotional over a cat, and that just feels silly. But then I know in my heart that she was so much more than just a cat. She was family, and saying goodbye to family is... impossible.



"and i know it's only natural to be sad, but not because of the words "he dies," but because of the life we saw prior to the words." | mr. magorium's wonder emporium

Monday, July 13, 2009

flooded with all this pain, knowin' i'll never hold you like i did before the storm

two things:

1.) i'm obsessed with twitter
2.) i'm psyched for harry potter tomorrow night

oh, also, the following:

- i'm strangely in love with the song "before the storm" by miley cyrus and nick jonas. (that makes me want to blow my own brains out, thankyouverymuch)
- im avoiding a friend request on facebook
- tam made me try on the six-carat diamond ring that will one day be mine
- i've been trying to think of things to tweet to dane cook so our notebook-esque love affair can finally begin
- im going to work with tam tomorrow like a five year old.


and finally, the saddest piece of news in my life, a tidbit that will devastate anyone who knows/knew her:

i'm fairly certain baby is dying.


xo