sad things and a few obsessions

well, my grandpa died on sunday.

i've experienced a couple of highly emotional events lately, like within the last two weeks.

i can't talk about it. it's too sad, and i just get too upset. i just can't handle it right now. i live it every day; i don't need to write it down. there probably wouldn't even be the right words to describe those feelings. it's too hard.

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i'm loving water and a flame by daniel merriweather and adele. download it, youtube it, itunes... whatever. get it. it's amazing. i listen to it on perez over and over and over again. i'm obsessed.

another thing i'm obsessed with: bret michaels.

this fact upsets me. he repulses me, and yet, i'm strangely addicted to rock of love, which is appalling in and of itself.

the funny story behind this is that it's a totally new-found obsession and it was admitted out loud to a couple of my closest friends recently. we were in vegas, getting ready to go out or go to dinner- i don't remember exactly where it was that we were going. regardless, we were supposed to be getting ready to go somewhere, and megan was flipping channels. she stopped on vh1 so we could watch the end of sober house (amazing!) and see andy dick being all precious and sad. then, (get excited), it ended and e! true hollywood story came on. it was on bret michaels. imagine my surprise when i was genuinely excited to watch it. it was appalling.

the worst part is that i knew a lot of that stuff beforehand. i knew about his diabetes, i knew he was in poison, i knew he had two daughters... like, how?! how (and why!?) did i know these things? megan and aleka were appalled, lol. it was awesome.

so now, whenever i hear anything about him, see anything on tv about him, whatever- i just immediately watch it and tell megan how excited about it i am. lol it's hilarious. it's an awesome new running joke. yayyyyyy

oh, one last thing: i watched au pair 3: adventure in paradise and let me tell you, as lame as it was, i looooooved it. it was like the other two and i was psyched to watch it.